So, I'm plodding away at this punishment of a kit. I manage to fight back after punch this thing throws at me...until tonight. Having attached the life raft tube and headrest behind the cockpit, and discovering, with absolutely no surprise that the two uprights that are supposed to meet over that assembly don't, and really, why would they, and when I get them to meet, I'm going to have to fill the sinkholes and the ridiculous seam that will no doubt result. It was then that I thought that I should get the canopy and make sure that it would fit over this mess after all this trouble. It was then that I realized...
I can't find the clear parts sprue.
Worse, I can't remember ever having SEEN the clear parts sprue.
I tend to do things in a particular order when opening a kit and I have a special place where the clear parts of my kits go so they don't get damaged. They weren't there. I also don't remember inspecting them and putting them in their place like I always do.
I then proceeded to rip apart my workshop, open every kit that's recently come in, I dumped out the garbage, I pulled everything apart. Nothing.
I'm not proud of what came next.
I carefully removed all of the parts that I had cleaned and placed on fixtures for painting from their perches. I then gently placed the engine, wings and fuselage half/cockpit subassemblies with the other parts, and I proceeded to break every single piece into tiny pieces and throw it in the trash.
What's worse, I'm not even mad. It was cathartic. It felt good to be rid of that kit.
I build for enjoyment. I prefer to build well engineered kits that are designed well and reasonably accurate. If I'm REALLY interested in the subject, I'll muddle my way through the fitting, sanding, filling, filing to get what I want. This was one of those kits. It was within my skills and abilities, but I not only wasn't enjoying it, I was dreading it. I usually am happy to get down to the workshop, put on some music and have hours pass by like minutes. Not this time. I found myself looking for excuses not to go downstairs.
To be honest, rather than the sinking feeling of dread that I would feel on a project I was enjoying upon realizing that I'm missing parts, I actually felt relieved.. It was as if I was let off the hook. I could have looked around for a replacement, but i had no desire to do so. Now I have to think about what I can build for this GB. I have Tamiya's and Hasegawa's A6M2 kits, as well as a Rufe. I'll have a look at them and see if any of them have markings for a Midway combatant.